Sometimes u need to take ur eye glasses off!
U need to see a hazy world with no data appearing in ur brain center. Trust me, this data gets sooner or later accumulated around every corner of ur sub-conscious, and u start repressing!
Sometimes u just say "ENOUGH" throwing up nightmares every night!
"ENOUGH" haunting what u don't have!
What happens when u take off ur glasses is not only an acceptance of a hazy vision, but also a kind of relaxing headache, u don't hear properly, quite off balance, calm because u're a bit hesitant but steady because u don't want to fall.
A state of "Don't focus because the headache will increase".
Silently Distant!
Close ur eyes from time to time...By practice u will start checking ur inner core as it's the only available aquarium for u to see clearly when u close ur eyes!
What used to be is that U were always concerned of what's happening around u and how u want things to happen...& usually the two aspects will never intermingle...& u will end up frustrated!
But in a hazy world, u can't focus on the people around u, u can't pay attention to their actions, u just stop gathering information and reading tarot by candle light.
With no eye glasses, U trust only the eyes of God!
Ur sudden reactions will be delayed...ur pace will get slower...u will become more quiet in a noticeable way, will start ironing ur clothes, making ur bed & praying in time.
Ur sub-conscious will bother u at night, but u will wake up silently as if nothing was irritating u a couple of hours ago...Nothing stays the same forever!
I'm a person who lacks Nostalgia...who misses nothing of a past influence...Who regrets nothing that made me cry!
It goes like this: U have Now and U have Tomorrow...and U have a "shift+delete" icon stuck in the back of ur thoughts' sack (aka: ur brain)...if u didn't clean ur mess up this moment, one day u'll be kicked in the bin of life for good!
I, honourably, had been stuck with losers since the moment My Mischievous Brain started kicking it's way out of destiny's uterus (that's me using figurative language)...& I, honourably, had been destroying certain beautiful gifts that was granted to me since the break of My dawn...But, I realised at this historical moment ,which I think only one person, with a name of bitterness, would understand it, that the hard part is not in taking off ur glasses, neither by letting go, nor by making a certain decision BUT the hardest part lays in believing in the sound of ur prayer and having faith that u will be granted patience for a beautiful tomorrow.
Sometimes U have to take off ur eye glasses to have a clearer vision!
Sometimes U have to take them off just to take a glimpse of such tiny details that were all the time so close to u but u missed them trying to fetch what long sight vainly promised u!
After taking off my Eye Glasses, I would like to dedicate some Thank You's to certain Pop ups & Long ago's that have been with me since I don't when!
Thank You Persistence for keeping me on my feet all this time!
Thank You Masochism for teaching me that wisdom is silently painful
Thank You Friendship for proving that I'm loved (especially Mary-Summer-Isho-Nad-Niha-Sigi ur words & laughter r always echoing in my ears lately)
Thank You My Family & sister for loving me to the maximum even when I lock myself in my room all day
Thank You Palahniuk for teaching me that salvation hides in the last places I'll ever want to look
Thank You Miriam for being my ultimate soul mate for all these years
Thank You Courage for teaching me that Faith & Patience always walk hand in hand
Thank You "My Dream" for passing me like a ghost holding me still to think of what I've never thought was possible!
Thank You My Lord for the thought of creating me, for watching over me, for waiting on me, for blessing me, for staying with me when all the above will one day leave me...Thank You for loving me that much!
© Moon 2010
You're such a beautiful crazy person. You're an alien on a planet full of dead people walking. Your writings makes me just.. wanna hug somebody.
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