Friday, 19 February 2010

St.Moon's Hazy vision!

Sometimes u need to take ur eye glasses off!

U need to see a hazy world with no data appearing in ur brain center. Trust me, this data gets sooner or later accumulated around every corner of ur sub-conscious, and u start repressing!

Sometimes u just say "ENOUGH" throwing up nightmares every night!

"ENOUGH" haunting what u don't have!

What happens when u take off ur glasses is not only an acceptance of a hazy vision, but also a kind of relaxing headache, u don't hear properly, quite off balance, calm because u're a bit hesitant but steady because u don't want to fall.

A state of "Don't focus because the headache will increase".

Silently Distant!

Close ur eyes from time to time...By practice u will start checking ur inner core as it's the only available aquarium for u to see clearly when u close ur eyes!

What used to be is that U were always concerned of what's happening around u and how u want things to happen...& usually the two aspects will never intermingle...& u will end up frustrated!

But in a hazy world, u can't focus on the people around u, u can't pay attention to their actions, u just stop gathering information and reading tarot by candle light.

With no eye glasses, U trust only the eyes of God!

Ur sudden reactions will be delayed...ur pace will get slower...u will become more quiet in a noticeable way, will start ironing ur clothes, making ur bed & praying in time.

Ur sub-conscious will bother u at night, but u will wake up silently as if nothing was irritating u a couple of hours ago...Nothing stays the same forever!

I'm a person who lacks Nostalgia...who misses nothing of a past influence...Who regrets nothing that made me cry!

It goes like this: U have Now and U have Tomorrow...and U have a "shift+delete" icon stuck in the back of ur thoughts' sack (aka: ur brain)...if u didn't clean ur mess up this moment, one day u'll be kicked in the bin of life for good!

I, honourably, had been stuck with losers since the moment My Mischievous Brain started kicking it's way out of destiny's uterus (that's me using figurative language)...& I, honourably, had been destroying certain beautiful gifts that was granted to me since the break of My dawn...But, I realised at this historical moment ,which I think only one person, with a name of bitterness, would understand it, that the hard part is not in taking off ur glasses, neither by letting go, nor by making a certain decision BUT the hardest part lays in believing in the sound of ur prayer and having faith that u will be granted patience for a beautiful tomorrow.

Sometimes U have to take off ur eye glasses to have a clearer vision!

Sometimes U have to take them off just to take a glimpse of such tiny details that were all the time so close to u but u missed them trying to fetch what long sight vainly promised u!

After taking off my Eye Glasses, I would like to dedicate some Thank You's to certain Pop ups & Long ago's that have been with me since I don't when!

Thank You Persistence for keeping me on my feet all this time!

Thank You Masochism for teaching me that wisdom is silently painful

Thank You Friendship for proving that I'm loved (especially Mary-Summer-Isho-Nad-Niha-Sigi ur words & laughter r always echoing in my ears lately)

Thank You My Family & sister for loving me to the maximum even when I lock myself in my room all day

Thank You Palahniuk for teaching me that salvation hides in the last places I'll ever want to look

Thank You Miriam for being my ultimate soul mate for all these years

Thank You Courage for teaching me that Faith & Patience always walk hand in hand

Thank You "My Dream" for passing me like a ghost holding me still to think of what I've never thought was possible!

Thank You My Lord for the thought of creating me, for watching over me, for waiting on me, for blessing me, for staying with me when all the above will one day leave me...Thank You for loving me that much!

© Moon 2010

Thursday, 11 February 2010

Give me Valentine...FLASH!

Porcelain Bathroom floor
mirrors on the ceiling

U're beautiful..U know it


let ur hair down


Give me red lips

Give me enchantment

touch ur teeth with ur tongue...look me straight in the eye
love me

hold ur neck high

Give me seduction

touch ur lips with ur finger me red nail polish
bite ur lips
chin in
flip ur hair the other side

Give me Passion

Give me Basic instincts

Give me Self adoration

stretch ur thighs
turn ur neck around
look back
check ur high heels

Give me Sexiness

Give me Desire

look urself in the mirror
face urself
look urself in the eye
lose urself

Give me shock

Give me tears

lean on the wall
slip on the floor
feel the coldness crashing u to the bones
hit the bottom

Give me fear

Give me loneliness

Give me self-disgust

Wipe ur smoky eyes with ur hands
pick ur skin with ur nails
hit ur head back to the wall
destroy urself

Give me dissatisfaction

Give me blood

raise ur head up high
check ur pathetic hideous little bony figure in the ceiling mirror
loath urself
feel the shiver down ur bone marrow
clinch ur teeth

Give me Depression

Give me suffocation

Forget everything
close ur eyes
rest ur head on the floor
hug urself to sleep

Give me cold sweat

Give me nightmares

Give me silence

Give me a BREAK

(Thnx Palahniuk for inspiring me through ur Invisible Monsters)

© Moon 2010

Sunday, 7 February 2010

The Frog in me!

She's dusty and a little bit rusty

With no mirrors in her bedroom...She wears furry slippers and falls in love with serial killers

she eats 12 pieces of sushi in a row and drinks 5 cups of milk a day

she reads psychoanalytical fiction that clings around ur brain with a taste of blood

she won't like u if u loved her first but she would fall for u if u didn't love her back

she's the owl of every wrong fairy tale

The sleeping beauty of every horror movie...falling in love with villains

she's the one with the mysterious aura

who stays awake all night

The adult who brushes her teeth with a baby tooth brush

She's the childish seducer who would enchant u with her innocent smile and despises u for the rest of her life for giving in to her feminine nature

The one who sleeps with a three angels' picture above her head and an ugly gnome portrait right in front of her bed

The one who doesn't like flowers because they die quickly leaving no legacy behind to be remembered for

The one who always sees herself as the "fool" in a tarot deck

The one with the 3 swinging moods...dark, bright and being just stuck between the two moods makes her eclipse around her axis with nowhere to go and nothing to do but suffocate

The Moon-Light Rex

The pathetic little princess which is stuck in the dreams of every wishing frog

© Moon 2010