Friday, 19 February 2010
Sometimes u need to take ur eye glasses off!
U need to see a hazy world with no data appearing in ur brain center. Trust me, this data gets sooner or later accumulated around every corner of ur sub-conscious, and u start repressing!
Sometimes u just say "ENOUGH" throwing up nightmares every night!
"ENOUGH" haunting what u don't have!
What happens when u take off ur glasses is not only an acceptance of a hazy vision, but also a kind of relaxing headache, u don't hear properly, quite off balance, calm because u're a bit hesitant but steady because u don't want to fall.
A state of "Don't focus because the headache will increase".
Close ur eyes from time to time...By practice u will start checking ur inner core as it's the only available aquarium for u to see clearly when u close ur eyes!
What used to be is that U were always concerned of what's happening around u and how u want things to happen...& usually the two aspects will never intermingle...& u will end up frustrated!
But in a hazy world, u can't focus on the people around u, u can't pay attention to their actions, u just stop gathering information and reading tarot by candle light.
With no eye glasses, U trust only the eyes of God!
Ur sudden reactions will be delayed...ur pace will get slower...u will become more quiet in a noticeable way, will start ironing ur clothes, making ur bed & praying in time.
Ur sub-conscious will bother u at night, but u will wake up silently as if nothing was irritating u a couple of hours ago...Nothing stays the same forever!
I'm a person who lacks Nostalgia...who misses nothing of a past influence...Who regrets nothing that made me cry!
It goes like this: U have Now and U have Tomorrow...and U have a "shift+delete" icon stuck in the back of ur thoughts' sack (aka: ur brain)...if u didn't clean ur mess up this moment, one day u'll be kicked in the bin of life for good!
I, honourably, had been stuck with losers since the moment My Mischievous Brain started kicking it's way out of destiny's uterus (that's me using figurative language)...& I, honourably, had been destroying certain beautiful gifts that was granted to me since the break of My dawn...But, I realised at this historical moment ,which I think only one person, with a name of bitterness, would understand it, that the hard part is not in taking off ur glasses, neither by letting go, nor by making a certain decision BUT the hardest part lays in believing in the sound of ur prayer and having faith that u will be granted patience for a beautiful tomorrow.
Sometimes U have to take off ur eye glasses to have a clearer vision!
Sometimes U have to take them off just to take a glimpse of such tiny details that were all the time so close to u but u missed them trying to fetch what long sight vainly promised u!
After taking off my Eye Glasses, I would like to dedicate some Thank You's to certain Pop ups & Long ago's that have been with me since I don't when!
Thank You Persistence for keeping me on my feet all this time!
Thank You Masochism for teaching me that wisdom is silently painful
Thank You Friendship for proving that I'm loved (especially Mary-Summer-Isho-Nad-Niha-Sigi ur words & laughter r always echoing in my ears lately)
Thank You My Family & sister for loving me to the maximum even when I lock myself in my room all day
Thank You Palahniuk for teaching me that salvation hides in the last places I'll ever want to look
Thank You Miriam for being my ultimate soul mate for all these years
Thank You Courage for teaching me that Faith & Patience always walk hand in hand
Thank You "My Dream" for passing me like a ghost holding me still to think of what I've never thought was possible!
Thank You My Lord for the thought of creating me, for watching over me, for waiting on me, for blessing me, for staying with me when all the above will one day leave me...Thank You for loving me that much!
© Moon 2010
Thursday, 11 February 2010
Porcelain Bathroom floor
mirrors on the ceiling
U're beautiful..U know it
let ur hair down
Give me red lips
Give me enchantment
touch ur teeth with ur tongue...look me straight in the eye
hold ur neck high
Give me seduction
touch ur lips with ur finger tips...show me red nail polish
bite ur lips
flip ur hair the other side
Give me Passion
Give me Basic instincts
Give me Self adoration
stretch ur thighs
turn ur neck around
check ur high heels
Give me Sexiness
Give me Desire
look urself in the mirror
look urself in the eye
Give me shock
Give me tears
lean on the wall
slip on the floor
feel the coldness crashing u to the bones
hit the bottom
Give me fear
Give me loneliness
Give me self-disgust
Wipe ur smoky eyes with ur hands
pick ur skin with ur nails
hit ur head back to the wall
Give me dissatisfaction
Give me blood
raise ur head up high
check ur pathetic hideous little bony figure in the ceiling mirror
feel the shiver down ur bone marrow
clinch ur teeth
Give me Depression
Give me suffocation
close ur eyes
rest ur head on the floor
hug urself to sleep
Give me cold sweat
Give me nightmares
Give me silence
Give me a BREAK
(Thnx Palahniuk for inspiring me through ur Invisible Monsters)
© Moon 2010
Sunday, 7 February 2010
She's dusty and a little bit rusty
With no mirrors in her bedroom...She wears furry slippers and falls in love with serial killers
she eats 12 pieces of sushi in a row and drinks 5 cups of milk a day
she reads psychoanalytical fiction that clings around ur brain with a taste of blood
she won't like u if u loved her first but she would fall for u if u didn't love her back
she's the owl of every wrong fairy tale
The sleeping beauty of every horror movie...falling in love with villains
she's the one with the mysterious aura
who stays awake all night
The adult who brushes her teeth with a baby tooth brush
She's the childish seducer who would enchant u with her innocent smile and despises u for the rest of her life for giving in to her feminine nature
The one who sleeps with a three angels' picture above her head and an ugly gnome portrait right in front of her bed
The one who doesn't like flowers because they die quickly leaving no legacy behind to be remembered for
The one who always sees herself as the "fool" in a tarot deck
The one with the 3 swinging moods...dark, bright and being just stuck between the two moods makes her eclipse around her axis with nowhere to go and nothing to do but suffocate
The Moon-Light Rex
The pathetic little princess which is stuck in the dreams of every wishing frog
© Moon 2010